You Were The Last Good Thing I Ever Saw...

way to much to say...

2005-03-01T03:56:39Z

ok. so. i'm getting rid of this journal. i shall be making a new one. i'll be adding only a select few to my friends list. if you want, you can add me as well. i will send the people whom i'm adding a message. enough said.

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2005-02-08T03:33:03Z

yeah so i've decided that i'm not writing in this journal of mine anymore.
maybe i'll get a new one when radell & i get a computer at the house.
farewell.

cutmyheartintwo @ 2005-01-25T10:40:00

2005-01-25T15:40:58Z

and everyone who is posting anonymously, leave your fucking name and i'll get back to you.
stop being bitches.

HA.

2005-01-25T15:38:10Z

you guys think your so fucking tough?
fucking bring it on then.
i'm tired of fucking with stupid little bitches.
and do you think its funny to make fun of straight egde kids?
because you sound really fucking gay.
i'm not even straight edge.
you all should grow the fuck up and seriously take me out of the center of your lives.
but if you can't do that, you all know where we live and where we hang out.
fucking show up and be the tough guys that you are(HA)
don't fuck with me.
you think I'VE fucked with the wrong people?
come to my house. lets make it a fucking date.
bring all your stupid bitches.
we'll all have a fucking party.
so fuck all of you.
(and i do believe i just wasted a moment in my life by typing this because i know no one will show up)

THANKSBYEFUCKYOU.

gay.

2005-01-18T18:17:09Z

thanks for the comments but i'm not paying any amount of money because you told me i didn't have to pay you back. don't change that all of a sudden. and you think you can ruin my life. try it. i'm truley not afraid of you or any of your gay ass friends ecspecially april. do you think any of my friends or RADELL will believe anything you say? he absolutley dispises all of you and could give two shits about what you guys say or think. so don't threaten me. your wasting your time. oh yeah and if your getting someone to call radells house and act really fucking stupid, just stop. your games are childish and we would all love it if you would just stay out of our lives. if you want your tapes and clothes back, thats great. i will give them to you as soon as i can. i just want to make it clear that i do not like you nor april and you guys should leave us out of you life. and i will repeat, i'm not giving you any money. thank you for your time and have a B-E-A-utiful day.

*MUAH*

oh yeah and by the way...my birthday is this sunday! i would love to spend it with the wonderful boyfriend and the awesome friends i have. SMOOCHES!

♥radell♥

life would be so much better if you died...

2005-01-17T01:42:16Z

so yes. it got my lip pierced. it hurt. it looks hott.

♥radell♥

bye.

the hell with this...

2005-01-12T18:00:42Z

i hate a lot of people at this moment.
i don't even feel like writing in this stupid journal anymore.
i just want to say that:

April Narango, i fucking hate you.
Erin Pilkenton, i fucking hate you.

and to Joe Don Casey and Chris. if i found out that you were the people who fucked with my car at dennys, its your fucking lives.

Also, i would like to express how much i love the friends that i DO have and how much i love my family. you guys are the geatest.

Radell, i love you like no other and your my one and only forever.

to everyone else.

DIE.

have a B-E-A-utiful day.

haha fuck you!

2005-01-03T16:39:29Z

all i have to say is that Across Five Aprils is staying at radell mine and tims house tuesday night and wednesday night!

fuck you haha!

oh yeah there having a show this wednesday night at the mojo room.
all should attend.

SMOOCHES!

♥radell♥

yeah...right....

2004-12-27T19:17:06Z

christmas was great. got a lot of money, 2 pairs of shoes, 2 CDs, A LOT OF MAKEUP and radell got me great clothes! christmas night we went and saw darkness. it was gay. don't go see it.

so as soon as everything is like perfect, of course something HAS TO GO WRONG.
i get my car broken into.
AND i know the kids who did it.
radell caught them outside in my car.
we called the cops.
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
the broke a piece of my top so now one of the plastic windows is broke.
my antena is FUCKED.
my brake light is bent.
AND they keyed bitch on the back of my car.
the thing is, i've only met them twice and it wasn't like we were hanging out. the came over for like 15 min. and all i said was hi i'm deborah.
fuckers.
so yeah since the car is in my moms name she has to take care of it.
yes she is pressing charges if the kis mike does not pay for the shit in 7 days.
haha i thought it was funny that she gave him 7 days.
maybe if he doesn't pay by the 7th day he'll die?! HA.

alright i have to get an estiment on my car and go to ballys to get my job. WOO!
oh yeah i got my cell phone back on. # 410-218-1033.
if i like you, call me :D

♥radell♥

ay yo ladadeyo...ay yo ladadeyo ladeda...

2004-12-24T01:55:00Z

i just thought i would post that i have the most hottest, wonderful, sweetest, caring boyfriend in the world.
and you don't :D

♥Radell is my love♥

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absolutley true....

ok i'm done.

ewww...

2004-12-23T04:18:06Z

" i'd rather be stuck up daves ass than up a niggers who beats me"

fuck you. calling him a nigger does not make him nor I mad. it just makes you sound really fucking stupid because i know thats the only word you could think of 'cause your such a fucking idiot. the hell with you.

so anyway, people irritate the fuck out of me. get a life&stay out of mine.

so of the friends that i do have, which isn't many, i do love you guys&you are all i need.

i love you oh so much radell♥♥

christmas is so close! i'm so excited. i can't wait to give radell his gifts. i hope he likes them.

ok i'm tired&i have to pee.

kisses much♥

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2004-12-21T04:07:25Z

i do hate baking cookies.
the hell with that.
unbelievable amount of cookies.
i hate life.

so i didn't do much at all today except bake 2936592151 thousand cookies.
oh yeah and i took a bath and wrapped some presents.
ok well i just thought i say hello. i must pick radell up from work now.

i love you all. sometimes.

♥radell♥

i hate life right now.

2004-12-18T20:37:49Z

i used to love the holidays.
i'm starting to hate it.
-cleaning for 1832649834081 hours.
-shopping for 1803016582 hours for like 19834698326589321 people.
-wrapping 1264871264876408 gifts.
-having a livejournal so then you have to write about the 10932863021301 things you did.

happy fucking holidays :D

so yesterday i helped my granmom clean the house.
went back home.
radell&i took a shower together.
went to guitar center&sold his bass.
he got 70$ for it.
dropped radell off&went back to my house to pick my dog up.
SNICKERS CAME OVER TO SPEND THE NIGHT!
i love her.
went home.
tim&ori were there. (by the way ori, i do love your hair OH SO MUCH♥
we all loved on my doggie.
CHRIS CAME OVER.
aww i missed him.
me radell&chris went to bill batemans&got cheese fries&wings.
went back home&anthony was there.
me radell chris&anthony went to the mall.
saw jeff&the twins there.
hung out for a bit.
went back home.
the guys played video games while me&snickers took a nap.
amie called cause we were about to go to sonar!
HELL YEAH.
went to sonar at like 1130pm.
had a hell of a good time!
i wish you would have came ori :(
cali took lots of pictures at sonar that i would love to see.
got home at like 230am.
love making :D
sleep.

so today my granmom&i went grocery shopping. gay.
i wrapped some presents.
now i'm tired.
i must call lindsay.
were are hanging out tonight or i will cut off her arm :D
i do love you lindsay♥

ok gotta pick radell up from work at 630pm.
i'm taking a nap.
and i have to pee.

♥♥Radell♥♥

i'm way cooler than you :D

2004-12-15T22:50:19Z

i had much fun last night.
nicole came over finally!
although we didn't do much or go out or anything i still had a good time.
playing scatagories&video games with nicole&tim...greatness.
&then tim deicided to cook. he made RIBS.
they were quite good i must say.
i was upset that oriel couldn't come over last night though :(
of course radell was being a butthead and didn't want to play scatagories.
so he went out somewhere.
around like 1ish, thud&dave came over.
they left at like 145am i think.
i was trying to stay up&wait for radell to get home but i was tired.
so nicole&i went bed at 2am.
when radell came in it was like 245am&i was sleeping.
he kissed me on the cheek&said goodnight. it was the cutest thing ever.
it woke me up so we talked for a little bit&then i went back to bed.

today radell woke us up at like 11am. he had to be at work at 12.
nicole decided to go home when i took him to work.
so when i dropped radell off i went to my granmoms house.
we went shopping&and now i'm bored.
waiting for 8pm so i can pick radell up from work.

i wish it would snow.
it started to a little bit last night.
i was so excited.
i do love the snow oh so much :D

ok i'm out of thoughts.

radell, i love you oh so much.

♥

oh so bored...

2004-12-14T20:28:26Z

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ok so i was really bored.
i'm going to pick radell up from work now.
YAY NICOLE IS COMING OVER TO SPEND THE NIGHT!
I LOVE HER!
smooches.

radell, oh how much i love you ♥

cutmyheartintwo @ 2004-12-14T08:19:00

2004-12-14T13:19:44Z

fuck you.
its early.

what did you say??

2004-12-12T19:02:45Z

yesterday-
-cleaned my granmoms room for like 28364890265491826351 hours.
-picked radell up from work at 830pm.
-got mcdonalds.
-went home.
-ate the mcdonalds.
-radell&iwent to sleep.

wow so exciting.

OH WAIT.

-we woke up at 4am and had sex.
-went back to sleep.

HELL YEAH!

SMOOCHES. radell, i'll love you forever <3333

oh my darling dear...

2004-12-10T18:21:34Z

i'm so bored.
radells out getting his hair cut and i'm doing nothing.
granmom is sleeping and i don't want to wake her.
so we won't be decorating the tree.
this is insane.
i can't think of anything to write.

well last night didn't do much at all.
went to radells band practice.
i prentended i was in a hardcore band.
atleast i found out i can scream!
hell yeah.
it was so cold and rainy last night and again it is cold and rainy today.
i made christmas cards for the band members and they loved it!
i need to go back to overlea so i can make more DeadAboveGround stickers so they have them to sell at their show!
so after his practice we just went home and cuddled on the couch and watched t.v.
then we had sex and went to bed.
good times.

%$#@&*LIDSH#$@*&%

fuck.

i hate being bored.

i was supposed to hang out with ms. lindsay last night but she didn't answer her phone :(
oh well i shall try to call again today.

i can tell that i'm just going to start saying random things so i'm going to end this now.

i do want mashed potatoes though.

HEARTS <3333
radell, my one and only for life <333 :D

fuck you. just kidding :D

2004-12-09T14:18:57Z

i cannot believe it is this god damn early&i'm actually up.
didn't do much yesterday.
hung out at my granmoms house.
went to cheerleading.
watched april&jamie give me snobby&bitchy looks.
laughed about it&talked to all my girls on the squad.
they said they absolutley love me :)
left cheerleading&went over sades house.
hung out for a bit.
picked radell up from work.
went home.
tim&ori were there!
I MISSED ORIEL!
tim asked me&radell to join his&ori's extremely simple tough guy band.
of course i said yes.
you know whats cool.
I'M THE SINGER (or should i say screamer?)
we're a laundry room band. HAHA.
hung out with them two for a while&jammed to some music.
me&radell went to billbatemans&got something to eat.
came home.
cuddled for like an half&hour because some girl called him wanting him to hang out.
which i didn't understand why he did because he complained all night he had to be to bed early cause he had to work early as shit today.
so i got really pissed off.
he said he was only going to be an hour though.
so i chilled out&he left.
i fell alseep&woke up at 230am.
i mind you, he left at 1030pm&still wasn't home.
i was so extrememly pissed&i was scared something might have happened.
so i called the girls phone&he answered.
what was even better was that he was at an all girls college in some girls dorm room with 2 other girls.
i pretty much hung up on him &...
i went back to sleep.
end of night.

so today we wake up&i'm still pissed off.
he asked me what was wrong but i didn't feel like arguing so i said nothing.
we get in my car so i can take him to work&hes still asking to me to tell him whats wrong.
so i finally do.
&we start arguing.
of course.
he tells me i stupid for the way i feel.
i say 124612807640821274 obscene words back at him...
&then we got quiet.
he said i don't trust him.
its not that...i don't trust other girls.
because they are bitches. enough said.
he said if i can't except that he has a lot of "girl friends" then he can't be with me.
i flipped.
i screamed that it wasn't fair that he wont be with me because of the way i feel. i can't help it. thats bullshit.
so he says fine i just won't hang out with anymore girls.
I KNEW IT WAS GOING TO END LIKE THAT!
so we get to the mall, he opens the door, gets out, i asked him if he was going to say bye, he said no& slammed the door.

now of course i'm pissed.
BUT...
when i get home i get a phone call.
from radell.
i knew he would call.
he told me he loved me :D
but anyway i know none of you care about that whole situation, i was just bored. HAHA

but yeah i'm getting ready to go shopping with my wonderful granmom.
YAY shes giving me 75$ to go shopping for peoples.
ok i'm done.
HEARTS <3

Radell...although you severely pissed me off last night&today, i do love you oh so much :D

so bored...

2004-12-07T02:52:51Z

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Stubborn and hard-hearted.
Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be
taught. Always looking at people's flaws and
weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and
productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive
and has deep thoughts.
Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless
excited or tensed. Rather
reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses
but prone to colds.
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love.
Loves children. Loyal.
Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very
Stubborn and money cautious.

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hell yeah!

radell, i love you oh so much

aww it's so sad...

2004-12-07T01:25:28Z

aww i'm so sorry that rosedale kids are prettier than dundalk bitches.

except for oriel! i love her and she should live in rosedale cause were the shit.

anyway...
so yeah my list of people to kill is getting longer and longer by the minute.
this is great.
i even have addresses!
they don't know what there getting themselves into.
they think there so 'hardcore'
haha.
this is so fun!

i'll update later.
SMOOCHES.

<3RADELL<3

hmmm...

2004-12-05T20:09:21Z

Which Rock Chick Are You?

wow. i didn't even think of her.
oh well.
KISSES <3

cutmyheartintwo @ 2004-12-05T14:46:00

2004-12-05T19:51:05Z

i don't even know what to update about.
i don't really feel like it.
so maybe i just tell a few people i love them.

i love you radell.
i love you lindsay.
i love you ori.
i love you tim.
i love you lansdowne stephanie (haha).
i love the band members of DeadAboveGround.
i love my grandmom.

feel the love :D

ok i'm done.
SMOOCHES!
<333333

oh so true...

2004-12-01T20:10:48Z


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you are my love...<3333

oh no you didnt...

2004-11-30T14:13:12Z

i got a job.
it would only be exciting if i didn't work 2am to 8am.
gayest hours ever!
oh well i do get paid 9$/hour.

anyway...
i seriously need to get my christmas shopping done.
but i need money.
i should start working like right now.
DAMNIT.
i pretty much know what i'm getting everyone.
except radell.
i only got him 3 things so far.
and hes spending a tremendous amount of money on me so yeah i need to get him more stuff.

ORIEL! SHALL WE GO SHOPPING TOGETHER?!

i have like 19832640982368232 people to get for.
mostley family.

i gotta pick radell up from work today at 430.
then...
i'm probably not doing much considering i have to be at work tomorrow for training at 430 in the fucking morning!
i'm so not a morning person.

i'm hungry.

SMOOCHES!

<3radell<3